some late night thoughts, before an early morning.

my goodness, this weekend is going to be amazing.
this weezer song is my new love:

The moon was shinin’ on the lake that night.
The Slayer t-shirt fit the scene just right.
Through smeared mascara, I looked into your eyes and saw a light.
You told me stories about your chickadees
They didn’t like BB guns or stupid archery.
The jumbo lifeguard, he let them use the pool all day for free.

Then the conversation stopped and I looked down at my feet.
I was next to you and you were right there next to me.
Then I said, “Girl, if you’re wondering if I want you to, I want you to.
So make the move. Cause I ain’t got all night.”

The rest of the summer was the best we ever had.
We watched Titanic and it didn’t make us sad.
I took you to Best Buy, you took me home to meet your mom and dad.
Your mom cooked meatloaf even though I don’t eat meat.
I dug you so much I took some for the team.
Your dad was silent. His eyes were fixed to what was on TV.

Then the conversation stopped and I looked down at the ring.
Your folks were next to you and you were right there next to me.
Then I said, “Girl, if you’re wondering if I want you to, I want you to.
I swear it’s true. Without you, my heart is blue.
Ooohwhoa Girl, if you’re wondering if I want you to, I want you to.
So make a move. Cause I ain’t got all night.”

So much pain may come our way.
There may come a day when we have nothing left to say.

When the conversation stops and we’re facing our defeat.
I’ll be next to you and you’ll be right there next to me.
Then I’ll say, “Girl, if you’re wondering if I want you to, I want you to.
I swear it’s true. Without you my heart is blue.
Ooohwhoa Girl, if you’re wondering if I want you to, I want you to.
So make a move. Cause I ain’t got all night.”

ok, i love being a hopeless romantic & a ppt. i will love it always!
but i'm SO FRUSTERATED with waiting. i need to learn that my time, is not God's time.
gosh that's hard. i feel that i am extremely patient, i feel that i could go on and on without a boyfriend as long as i never lose God. this is I DO understand. and i pray for my future boyfriend/husband every night. and i know God is preparing him and i separately to strengthen us in HIM before we can strengthen each other through HIM. but times like this, another christmas, another new years, another winter, without a special someone, a boyfriend, that other kind of love- romantic love.
nothing compares to the love i feel with God, but, as i STILL HAVE YET to read c.s.lewis' the 3 loves, i know that God created humans to love each other. to find "a mate" if you will, and that love will be incredible. and yet, HIS love is greater. baffles my mind. but makes me SO excited to meet mine.

love,
carrieanne