Wednesday, November 25, 2009

top things that i like...

1. storms. i love them a lot, and i also love watching stormchasers. sundays are AWESOME on discovery.
2.

the ocean. this is laguna beach, cali. wonderful & they produce great drama. OH! and in and out. imissitSOmuch.
3.
i almost ALWAYS get my drinks iced. except breves. but i just love the coldness. mmmmmmmm.
4.
this band is really quite amazing. besides giving great shows, they lead by example & i am very impressed by them. as you all know.
5.
LOLcatz are the funniest one-liners, ever! this is my favorite one, enjoy :)
6.
these weirdos, i get to see them tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
7.
minneapolis. i love st.paul too, but spot 7 goes to minneapolis (612).
8.
'rooms & 215. my college experience.
9.
STARGAZERS.
10.


a 3-way-tie between SHARPIES (andrewschwab), weezer (thesweatersong) & theoffice.

welp, there it is. a top 10 list. picture blogs take way too long. but it was fun & if this doesn't post correctly the first time. oh well, it will never be repeated. haha.


love,
CA

Monday, November 9, 2009

can'twaitcan'twaitcan'twait


for my interview on friday @ 2pm.
i'm excited & so nervous.
this has to be it. this has to be MY internship.
my turn to get outta winona, forever.

Friday, November 6, 2009

frusteration.

hey gals! i got up "super early" 8:20am, 40 minutes early, because i couldn't sleep because i am so mad at mandy. i still can't get over her selfishness. all day, everyday i think of wayne & olive and give all my worries to God. this morning, i could not sleep because i was thinking about them and what i should tell mandy & all i can think to do (still) is yell at her!!!!!!!
so, also ironically i woke up and immediately had the "It is You" song in my head, by the Newsboys, so now i'm listening to their worship album. and even though i'm still scared i know they are ok & safe because they are in God's hands.

If I rise on wings of dawn
Or drift in seas of doubt
Even there Your strong right hand
Has never failed to guide me out

Great is Your faithfulness
To carry on with a sinner like me
Great is Your faithfulness
Turning shame into victory
Your grace has never let me be
Your mercy�s waited patiently
Oh, so great is Your faithfulness
To carry on with a sinner like me

If I hide in dark and shadows
Fearful of each day
Even there Your blinding light
Illuminates my pathway

Goodness never
Never fails
It never fails me


keep praying for them, for mandy specifically, for my family <3

thank you!!!

love,
CA

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

ummm pictures of my absurd hair.





the glasses aren't mine, they are my friend ashley's, she left them here after halloween. she wore them & my 6-1-2 sweatshirt and her "bling/bling" hat and she was a baller. it was awesome.

see you this weekend :) :) :) :)

love,
CA

Monday, November 2, 2009

highest & lowest.

whenever my friends come down for the weekend, i get SO SO SO sad when they leave and continue on with life...and i stay here and continue on with school. i'm very much ready to be donezo with school & winona & the lack of family down here.
i have horribly sad news, mandy went off the deep end & moved the kids to wisconsin. baldwin, wisconsin. which is an hour away, w/o traffic. this may sound easy for a lot of people & i'm SO HAPPY that it's only that far away. but for me, my whole family lives together and even though we have drama some times...we don't pack up and leave for no reason. i can't believe she took them away from us. their only family and stability.
i've been trying really hard to give this one to God, but it's so hard for me trust that they'll be ok without a weekly update from my mom or anna (when she babysat). because those are truthful updates, not fake phone ones.
on friday afternoon, i have having a GREAT day. i set up an interview with this internship that i want SO BADLY, followed by one of the worst phone calls ever telling me that my wayne & olive are moving to wisconsin. it was the highest (besides alyssa's engagement) & lowest news of this year, so far. i thought about it all weekend, i talked to wayne on the phone on saturday and he sounded excited. but i'm so scared. and i can't concentrate on school or anything.
i haven't told anybody but you girls, but i just find it so hard to even say. 3 days later it still hurts, but i realize it's NOT the end of the world. and wayne & olive could never forget all the love we have for them. all i hear is wayne saying during one of his mom's arguments, "if mom leaves, take olive and i want to stay with you". it makes me so scared that he won't have me there to protect him. he's only 6 but i wish i could buy him a cell phone and for him to be old enough to call me and tell me everything. the thing that hurts the most is that mandy did not & has not yet told me that she's moving. she's pulling wayne outta school, taking olive, quitting her job and moving outta state. she didn't bother to call me or tell mom, my mom found out through mandy's roommate jennifer and told me.
not to dump this on you, but i needed to tell you & i still cry when i try to explain it to people.
please pray for their protection and mandy's mental & emotional stability. this is entirely in God's hands and He will make good out of it.